My name is Elaine Suarez, I am a wife (married 32 years to the love of my life Izzy), a mother of 3 children, and a grandmother of 1. Joseph 27, Allie 25, Juliana 21. I have two living children (Allie & Juliana) and one child (Joseph) with God. Our granddaughter, Ella Joann Lerma, she is 2 years old. We lost our only son, Joseph, suddenly on May 28, 2018. Without warning grief creeped its way into our lives. It brought darkness, pain, sorrow, tears, isolation, disbelief, shock, sadness, and every unthinkable emotion connected to the death of a child. The before world we once knew was wiped away like a tsunami crushing everything in its path. Nothing or nobody could prepare us for the after, the world suddenly became dark. It had to be a really bad nightmare, I kept saying these words to myself over and over. The coroner kept his body for 21 days, due to an investigation which led nowhere. Because of those 21 days we were unable to see him one final time. It’s like he vanished into thin air. We never got to say goodbye. Not even embalming would have helped him look anything close to our Joe, too many days had passed so we chose to remember him the way we love him. By remembering his contagious smile, his loud laughter, his adorable and charismatic personality and his beautiful face. Joe is my heartbeat, and I can still hear the beat of my heart so I know he is with me, always. Our lives have been shattered and we are trying to find our way thru all of this “chaos,” his dad and sisters and myself. The world got much quieter when we lost Joe but I know for sure, heaven became much louder.
This is my story of Losing Joe. I love you to no end, Joseph Anthony Suarez. My promise, you will never be forgotten son.