Today is our second Thanksgiving holiday, it’s quite obvious this feeling I woke up to comes from the absence of Joe. It’s every day I feel him not here but this second year holiday it’s painfully powerful. My thoughts are running fast and I’m thinking all over the place. He still not here. Self-talk kicksContinue reading “Pain & Joy – Thanksgiving 2019”
Category Archives: Grieving Mom
A Shift in Grief
Life changes when grief enters and nothing is ever the same. Not even grief.
I Had A Dream…..
Last night I had the most beautiful dream. It was about Joe and he was here, alive. It felt very real, it was like he came to visit me for a while. I’ve had quite a few of these dreams over the past 14 months. My first dream happened on the night we found outContinue reading “I Had A Dream…..”
Joe’s Remembrance Table
Project Grief | The Suarez Family: A Wedding to Remember – link to article: projectgrief.org/blog/123518/weddingtoremember Thru this world of grief I’ve met countless people who share this terrible pain of loss. Throughout my travels online, I came across a site titled, Project Grief and it caught my attention. I apparently caught the authors attention asContinue reading “Joe’s Remembrance Table”
Pieces of Anything
Today I did some refreshing cleanup in Joe’s room. I vacuumed the carpet, dusted his furniture, wiped the dust off his shoes and clothes in his closet, and I put away his sunglasses that were on his desk. I don’t know why but I guess I got tired of them getting touched. So, I putContinue reading “Pieces of Anything”
A Letter to My Son – July 9, 2019
Today is July 9, 2019, it’s my birthday. Year 2 without you here on this day. You were always so excited to be the first one to tell me Happy Birthday Momma. I can still hear your raspy loud voice. Then bragging to your sisters how you were the first to tell me, I literallyContinue reading “A Letter to My Son – July 9, 2019”
1st Year Angelversary for Joe
Virtual Candlelight Ceremony for Joseph Anthony Suarez
As the angelversary day fast approaches, the first year of Joe’s passing (May 28, 2019), my mind was made up and I did not want to do any kind of memorial to remember that day of so much sorrow, shock, numbness, and devastation to myself and my family, as well as his friends. It’s stillContinue reading “Virtual Candlelight Ceremony for Joseph Anthony Suarez”
One Year Coming Soon
People ask me what are we planning to do for Joe’s one-year? It’s fast approaching on May 28, 2018 and every time I think of that question, I feel sick to my stomach. I begin to sweat, I feel lightheaded, it takes everything in me to breathe, and my body starts to shiver. I’m notContinue reading “One Year Coming Soon”
A Letter to My Mother
Dear Mommy, today is March 25, 2019, you’ve been in heaven 11 years. Last year at this time, Allie, Joe, Ella & myself spent time at your gravesite, it was beautiful. But, this year is different Mom. I can’t do my normal anniversary day with you today, I’m so sorry, I hope you can forgiveContinue reading “A Letter to My Mother”
